This document outlines a vision for the manifestation of my vocation in 2026-2027 intended to be read, in parts, by relevant collaborators and stakeholders.
A series of dreams inspires the writing of this document. The dreams have a particular quality that might be called noetic, shamanic, prophetic, or lucid. They happen just before I awake and are more stable than typical dreams. When I awake, I clearly remember the dream and my mind holds intuitions for creative actions like writing. They happen in series that are consistent and stable over several days.
The dream series typically involve interaction with a singular entity who seems to hold the space. The dream is a direct communion with the spirit. The dreams began when I was a child and I used to think of them as potential alien abduction or demonic visitations. I now think of these dreams as naturally occurring shamanic dreams that I have the sacred obligation to use for the benefit of myself and community. I documented my journey of understanding through my writing practice, which produced 5 self-published books on the subject and a related dozen art books.
The most recent dream series started as I found clarity in my vocation crisis, which was just part of the life crisis inspired by entering my 40s, ethical concerns about my PhD program (thus professional future), and growth of my family. My professional crisis is documented in the book Risks of Anomalous Retrocognition. The dreams that inspired that document were recorded in my magical art book Liber Visionorum Xenomanticarum. My vocational clarity came from re-reading my own work, especially Field Guide to Anomalous Geometry and Book of Galactic Light.
I started to see myself as the Priest and Prophet of the New Earth that I claimed in Book of Galactic Light. I decided to honor my own channeling as sacred and began to apply the methods I channeled through the Field Guide by beginning the draft of its sequel Field Log of Anomalous Geometry. As soon as I made those decisions, I received a series of potent omens and encountered Star River Sanctuary.
The most recent dreams occurred in the same dream location, in the large central room of a brick or stone building. In the dream, I am aware of the communion with the spirit such that the presentation of the dream’s central image feels like a face of that spirit, rather than as some random disconnected dream entity. The first dream presented a contract, the second dream involved a prophecy, and the third dream grounded the series in my waking life.
The first dream involve a contract. In the dream, it was floating in the middle of a chamber above a stone altar. Visually, it appeared as a luminous floating scroll, almost like an icon in a game UI. The presence of a floating scroll did not seem out of place because, in the dream, I understood that the experience was an expression of the deeper ineffable communion with spirit. I understood the scroll to reference previous year’s summer dream series, which I recorded in my private magic book Liber Oberon Magistar.
Liber Oberon Magistar is a fae book, written by hand after opening a physical altar that embodied the elements through physical objects and envisioning an astral correspondence, which seems similar to the mesa practices at Star River. The book ended with the central image of a scroll representing an agreement between me and the Fae Courts, which defines the magic by which I am to live. It is written by hand and private because it holds a psychic/astral strategy relating to AI/NHI narratives and because it is compelled by the Fae.
The contract was particularly important because it represents by vocation, which I need to actualize to be of service to my family and community. Otherwise, I remain in a state of shamanic dismemberment, underemployed and irritable about it. At the time, I was considering the Summer Solstice as a ceremony of redefining my marriage, which has been also has been in a crisis alongside my vocational journey. After the dream, I started drafting the document and performed ritual to call on my father as an ancestor to guide the agreement since he was a lawyer and Fae agreements are notoriously tricky.
In the next night, I had a dream of a master teacher teaching me about prophecy. He instructed me to prophecize, which I did. I opened myself to vision, then directly spoke that he would open up a well within the floor, put his head down in it, then catch a bat in his mouth, and the bat would have blood on its wings. Upon waking, I relieved the dream and the phrase “bat with bloods on its wing is a sign”, which I committed to look for.
Every so often, I’ll wake up with a phrase or image that I know will be message that I will encounter in the following day, usually involving my NHI/UAP research or practice. The clearest example for me was a lucid nightmare about a green alien in the street that pointed an interview by reporter Stephen Greenstreet, which was crucial information that I would have ignored out of bias if the dreams had not occurred.
The bat dreams has several details I’d like to document. The master teacher in my dream looked like Baylon Skoll from the Ashoka Star Wars, who was a former Jedi that adopted a grey or non-dual perspective rather than light or dark. Everyone including me was surprised by my skill at prophecy, even the Teacher seemed surprised at the prophecy and the fact that it occurred. While he did not believe that he could catch a bat, he was awestruck by the feeling and specificity of the prophecy, which compelled him to compile with the prophecy. I was a hollow vessel for the spirit of the prophecy, which felt uncanny and humbling. It is a feeling I associate with the interaction with the entities who resolve into Shining Ones within my dreams and dreamwork.
During the day after the bat dream, I listened to podcasts I had downloaded earlier to get to know Star River and the PMT. I listened to the Homo Luminous journey by Robin and Darcy and a interview with Don Oscar that mentioned his shamanic encounter with a vampire bat. In the second part of that interview, Don Oscar told the story of when he was 2 years old. A vampire bat attacked him and he killed the bat, which started his life-long relationship with the bat as a totem animal. My dream prepared me to see his story as a powerful omen that has a message related to my vocation.
In the next night, I dreamed of my right foot and 9 toes, connecting it to the Earth Temple and the Mountain Portal dream series that inspired Risks of Anomalous Retrocognition and my PhD withdrawal. I shifted from a normal dream, then took off my sandals and noticed extra toes on my foot. I could not count them by sight, but had to go one-by-one, counting 9. I counted twice and confirmed the count with my wife, then awoke. I immediately recognized the uniqueness of a confirmed number through dreaming, which I have never experienced outside of dreams involving entities who taught me sacred geometry to assist my vocational service.
The 9 dream toes contextualized the dream series within waking space time for me. The dreams connect to Star River because the Earth Temple at Star River has 9 sides, was inspired through dreams, and has a well within its floor. The right foot also connected to a previous dream series that involved a mountain portal and inspired my PhD withdrawal. Those dreams begin at a long feast table set besides the mountains. My mother and PhD advisor are endlessly discussing things, sitting across from me on the East side. I look down at my silver plate, reminding me of the flying saucer photos of Billy Meier, and see that I was served False Solomon Seal berries, which I interpret as an omen about their conversation. I stand up and go West into the mountains, then awake and begin writing about my ethical concerns and intuitions about my PhD program, recently confirmed as valid through the revelation that key faculty were direct Epstein associates, specifically Dean of Research Jeffery A. Martin.
The next dream in the series involved arriving at the mountain portal. At this point in my life, I have deduced through the signs and wonders of my journey that are too much to repeat here, that spirits who reside in these mountains will teach me about a portal system that connects to various places along the north-south American mountain ranges, connecting Mt. Shasta with the Atacama desert to my life in the Kootenays and everything in between. These beings are associated with CE-5/HICE and UAP phenomenon. They are often called orbs or spirit lights. The Field Guide to Anomalous Geometry demonstrates the congruence of orb formation geometry with the geometry of anomalous body marks associated with dreams encounters and invocations like CE-5. I turn to Shaw’s essay, Theurgy and the Platonist’s Luminous Body, as a scholarly example of the phenomenon outside of new age or UFO literature.
The mountain portal dreams involved my arrival in the mountains, directly in the dream from that feast table of the previous dream. The scenario reminded me of the Washington DC metro, with is vast tunnels going down and within the earth. The entire portal was made of black marble. Vast stairs lead down to a vast and shallow pool, beyond which was a large door and the gate to the realm within. I understand the significance of the portal in the dream, I understand that within is the portal system, the luminous cities/siddhis, and the home of those real entities who truly responded to my invocations in dreaming, magic, and CE-5.
As I move toward the door, several things happen and I just observed what happened. First, I noticed my wife holding my children. She was knee deep in the pool, weeping, and struggling to hold the children. As I observed her, I realized that we were in a healing pool and that perhaps the wart on my right heel would be healed. I looked down at my foot, noticed three warts, not one, which I tried to pick out. They turned out to be insectoid implants that each broke apart into three segments each, making nine total segments.
At first, I interpreted the dream to mean that I was ignoring my wife and children to go on a fool’s quest for mountain portals. Next, I considered that I needed to heal myself first to help my family. Most recently, I interpreted the dream as guidance to trust that my wife can hold my children while I heal and follow my call, even if she weeps and struggles. The dream felt obviously prophetic to me.
At some point, I realized that the dream tied my vocational path to extracting the warts, meaning that I would find the portal when I extracted the warts, which I first took to symbolize entity attachments associated with my UFO/UAP missing time hypnosis practice. However, I realized that they had to do with my relationship with my wife, who I tended to adapt my behavior for in a co-dependent attachment pattern. For instance, I only used apple cider vinegar to treat the warts, not conventional medicine, because she had expressed strong dislike/trust of allopathic medicine.
I began treating the three warts with conventional medicine in the spring of 2026 during a trial separation with my wife. The stress of my underemployment, our annual moves, and our co-dependent patterns caught up with us. We fought more, leaving me with escalating migraine symptoms, that I had not experienced since childhood. Since then, I have sought was to pro-actively thrive in life and my relationship. I am integrating bisexuality and neurodivergence into my identity, setting aside fear or trauma based masking behaviors that take energy.
This year, for me, has been about responsible energy management as an adult and house-holder. My migraines were metabolic events associated with burnout. The short term strategies of a young man no longer work for me as a father of three and a husband. Most of my issues come from masking, people pleasing, hyper-vigilance, and control rituals that I originally adopted in childhood. In other words, I found myself acting out the story of heteronormative holy matrimony and it was killing me, just like acting out the script of full time employee threated with skin cancer 10 years earlier.
I have been under employed for several years for a variety of reasons, but primarily because I am committed to my vocational work but have not been able to sustain the energy output it requires. I see how my inner state effects the outward reality of the success of my practice. My guidance is clear with me that I am in a shamanic journey and need to pass certain trials before it resolves. They told me that I was to study in and serve with a tradition that offers me work, which I had expected to come by way of my digital humanities and web software background for either an academic tradition or Western Esoteric lineage.
It feels as if my gainful employment is conditioned by certain events determined by spirit. I had a similar intuition after moving to San Francisco. I was unemployed for months and guidance said that I would not be employed until I consciously induce an OBE using my own energy system, which I strove to for several weeks until I accomplished then was employed as a book seller the next day.
Rather than a singular event, my guides would have me live in relationship with them. To live by magic and not money. They want me to write another book, the sequel to the Field Guide. They want to me live/work/study at Star River. They want me to write this document. They want me to cultivate temple spaces for creativity, purification, and dreaming.
| 2008 | Concerning the Spiritual in Art | |
| 2008-2009 | Fire House Gallery | |
| 2009-2012 | Wrote 6 art books, then began NORD | |
| 2012 | Fire Ceremony with “grandfather”; began light language | |
| 2013 | First Chaco Canyon visit | |
| 2013 | Rites of Passage; Hopiland; Chaco; England | |
| 2014 | Finished MA; Depth Hypnosis, Ikebana, core shamanism | |
| 2014 | Asclepion in Oakland | |
| 2016-19 | Nomading; Southwest, Lily Dale, Karme Choling | |
| 2019 | Meets Elena; Egypt, Bali | |
| 2020/1 | Cosmic Dream Hypnosis; Dan Berg (via Rahma); Sandra Newman (via White and Dannan) | |
Temple Based Shamanic Dream Vocation
Shining One Triangulation
Proposal
- Live/work apprentice at Star River
- Continued DSETI Dreamwork and CE-5
- Book publication